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so I havnt been here for a while i have been really busy with some things at work you see we have a biggest loser contest at work and wow I can’t believe how many people signed up. we have 130 employees working and 52 signed up for it and it was My idea so my manager and I are in charge of it which I am really excited about because im the one who started this so I should at least give it the best effort that I possibly can. and I am the one who has to motivate people so I have been busy making certificates info packs and activities together. making 50 information packs not as easy as you may think lol. so my next dilemma is a team name were divided into 6 groups and the top team who loses the most gets a 50$ gift cert each the person who loses the most gets a 250$ gift cert.  but its definatly a good thing. but I have to come up with a team name  the place I work with starts with a m and we do have a guy in the group  some names that I liked where

1 the badonkadonk busters

2 5 bakinis and a speedo

3 mission possible

4 weight watchers (that may be grounds for a law suit so maybe thats out)

but I would really like your input any cool names that you can come up with for a weight loss group thats fun.

im so pleased with all the responses that we recieved. I am overwhelmed with all the health talk and the friendly competition that we have buzzing around the work place the cafateria we have at work is even making healthier choices like fruits and dip and vanilla yogert with cut up oranges and strawberries and she got rid of all the deep fried foods. this is definatly the coolest thing. thats happned in a long time! and I am so excited that I am a part of it. the contest runs till june 1 so till then I will try to keep in touch but I am already booked for workouts and excercise this month yup this is such a great thing. I hope I win cause I want some new clothes in about 2 sizes smaller then what I wear now. 

first of all I am gonna say I ate WAY too much today and I dont mean like unbuckle a button my pants are getting tight kinda ate too much Im talking about my jacket was snug because i ate too much. the evening started out really good I was going to meet up with a friend I havent seen in a while when I st down there was already an appetiser sitting on the table. so I had a few bites of the spinach dip and tortilla chips then I had my meal which wasnt very healthy french fries and a chicken burger that was dripping with sauce and then for dessert we had deep fried cheese cake. My friend and I were having so much fun we just kinda kept eating so not only do I feel very ashamed of myself I feel very sick from all the food.  so back on the horse I go. grrr all the hard work totally was thrown out the window I feel so bad i could cry…. why do I do this to myself?  

thank you for all the support!!!!! I am so amazingly surprised at how much support that this website has to offer aka the responces I have recieved. its really awesome how people stand together and encourage each other for a common goal. I think that even when I have lost all the weight I plan on losing I will still come here everyday, just because you all are awesome. its funny how support and encouragement can make me/people feel like they can achieve anything. so thank you  for giving me a little bit of hope for all man kind!

onto other things, I had a bad day today not by my own choice though. first of all I need a new job because all I do is sit around all day talking on the phones. I work for a hotel making reservations I like my job

1. because I work with my b/f and best friends

2. I get to talk to people from all over the world and I hear some pretty funny stories lol people will share many things with people over the phone if you let them go lol but the stories make me smile and being happy is never a bad thing.

3. I have an awesome managment and I mean she is awesome!  although she was diagnosed with skin cancer last month and that stresses me out because she is a really good friend as well as my manager.

 But working on the phones all day is HORRIBLE for any kind of excercise. I get two 10 min breaks and a 30 min lunch so activity is very low I am on the health and wellness commity at work and that is helping me gain knowledge but I find because I sit all day thats what I want to do when I come home too. which sucks.

I live in a really cold climate right now too so it gets really hard to excercise this time of year as well . I was given a gym pass by a my roomate who isn’t using it any more so because she is seeing that I really want to lose weight she gave it to me. im just finding it really hard to go because well basically motivation. and self issues I have tuesdays off so I am going to be going then I figure it should be pretty quiet on a tuesday in the afternoon. and hopefully I can make it  routine. ill let everyone know how it goes. 

another reason why the day was so bad was because someone stole my lunch and I was forced to buy some lunch from the cafateria which basically has pub food aka deep fried I tried to keep it as healthy as I could but when your choice is grease or low fat grease really it doesnt make a difference its a loose, loose situation.

I did however go over to my moms house for supper where we had whole grain spaghetti and a great big salad so I filled up on the salad… yum!  

I am deciding to pick myself up dust myself off and prove that I am a powerful woman and no one is holding me down but myself.

 Hi My name is Diane and I weigh 340 lbs. at the age of 25. I realized something needed to be done when my mom started losing her weight (I am so proud of her she is my inspiration) I lost one pound and was pretty sad because she has lost about 80. My mom replied “dont be discouraged thats like 1 pond of lard.” and she was right I should be proud 1 pound is a LOT. but I also realized something, if I lost 1 pound of lard then I still had nearly 200 lbs of lard left inside me that shouldnt be there. and I started to picture 200 lbs of lard…take a moment and picture that slimy, gloppy disgusting mess. thats what is inside me, thats what i am defermined to lose. 

I am 25 and I have never had a day to celebrate my achievements mostly because I wouldnt let myself be celebrated. I have a wonderful man in my life and we have talked about marriage and i’ll be damned if i keep myself from having a good time on my wedding day because of my weight I am done feeling sorry for myself because of what was said in the past. that is not what is said to me now. I have to realize that and keep looking forward its going to be really hard but I am worth it.

I am looking forward to a life long journey cleaning up the  slimy, gloppy, disgusting mess.